Reflections on my day

As I sit in my car while driving to the church I work at, my mind begins to wander off to weird places. Who am I really? Why have I really decided to choose full time ministry as a profession? How much do I really believe of what I so often preach? These questions nag me at the very time I usually spend in prayer for the youth I minister to. Should I just push the question away and pray or let them saturate my mind for a while?

While stopped at a red light I look over at the car next to me. It happens to be a good looking female. My posture suddenly changes and I don't remember where I am supposed to put my hands...on the wheel, out the window or on my lap. I quickly become aware of the fact I haven't showered yet and my hair still has that "just got out of bed" look, where the right side of my hair is all standing up. I also think to myself "my left profile is not my good side" as I try to fix my hair without looking like I am. I never did catch her name but her posture never seemed to change when she saw me...

After four days of dogsitting my brothers dog I realize I have a lot less patience then I thought I did. I get annoyed when she licks me, barks at anything or even just wants to go to the bathroom. I yank the chain way too often as I take her for walks and don't want to change my schedule for her at all. I hope I'm not like this with my kids some day...

I plan on finishing up a book I started a few days ago after youth group is over. I end up watching FX's 30days for an hour then MTV's pimp my ride instead. I want to get up early and do some work tomorow morning but I figure I'll just sleep till 11 or noon instead. I plan on getting some work done for church rightnow but end up writing in my blog about nothing.

Sorry if this was too journalish for anybody, I just felt like I had nothing else to write about.