Distance
Im sitting at the Diner with friends I have had for years now, but I feel like a stranger and out of place. I feel like I have walked into a movie about a third of the way through, where everyone knows whats going on but me. I dont want to be rude and ask whats going on or talk about where I have been because I know it's always boring for the other person to listen to what a fun time they didn't have. So I just sat there pretending to fit in and be normal.
Spending 12 days camping, hiking, rock climbing and white water rafting with the same people does something to you (also spending 32 hours in the same van with the same people does something to you). As I returned from my trip to Colorado and assimlated back into my normal routine I realized something... home and friends didnt feel like home and friends anymore. I'm sure they quickly will again but isn't it odd how such a short time away from the regular brings about such distance? I wonder how many other things I have left because of a short time away and the work it takes to bridge the distance every time..
posted by NJ Lawyer @ 9:49 AM
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I think if it was just a few freinds it wouldnt have been rude but some of them were just aquintances (however you spell that). I agree about the change thing though, I feel like the past two trips have changed me immensely so thats why I felt such distance from everyone. The more you change the harder it is to express the change and words will never do anything like that justice, they always fall short. But I do still feel like whenever I talk about something fun I did I am, in a way, rubbing it in their face that they werent there, unless they ask. But usually when I start telling how the trip was they start looking away and then I just sum everything up in a few sentences because I can see they really dont care and they were just trying to be nice. I think that might just be something quirky about me though.
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